Life at the moment.

So, right now, it all feels so good. The smooth caress of life just floating on by. You close your eyes and feel the serenity of what should be. Peace, of mind. Is that what this is? It feels so odd. Not right. I should be feeling tense, anxious, irate, stressed, sick, something shitty. Instead, Im quite enjoying time right now. I wish every day could be like this. Although, if you stop to think of that, every day would be too much. Then you would just become immune to the exctasy that is happiness. Instead, I'll take a day like this amidst a week or two of hell just to remind me that it does exist.

THOUGHTS

It amazes me that there are so many girls or boys for that matter, that are out in the world conceiving children and they don't even want them. I think some people don't realize what a true blessing it is to be able to give life to someone. It truly is a spectacular thing, yet so many people take it for granted. As fucked up as this world may be and as much crap as there might be going on, having a child can change the way you view the world. How could it not? That little person depends on you for EVERYTHING. You are that child's source of life. How can you not see that as an enormous responsibility? Whether you agree with me or not, I don't care. I am not asking for anyone's opinion. I just feel that there are so many people out there not acting responsibly. I still have faith though, that one day, God will bless me with a marvelous gift. Until then, all I can do is pray and keep faith in God. One day, one day it will happen.